Paulynnnnnnnn.

just one day

2011-07-04T01:29:00.002+08:00

Just one day. One day, I will move out and away from this tiny place we call home. I want to migrate...I just want a less stressful life. My parents' age add up to a 100, they need a less stressed life to head on their golden years. I wish them to retire in the pink of health....As for me, if I continue on with this, I'm just going to start plucking my hair out before I hit 21..

What am I working hard for? What am I heading towards? All amounts to insignificant figures..

I want a new life.

i can't get it back but i don't want it back

2011-06-25T00:26:00.003+08:00

you will be my memory and my rememberance. i only know the moments we can share in the future will only be imagery formed in my head. not so of wishful thinking, but more of moving on from you. if the feeling's not right any longer, it won't be right anymore. i'm done! so go on and break free from the shackles of what we once shared, a tight bond between us two that could be sworn to secrecy because nobody under the sky knew, except us.

i hope we don't keep in touch, because i'm moving on and away from you. so long! may we never meet again!

sucking it up

2011-06-17T22:11:00.004+08:00

today i learnt that people change. maybe, it's not them that is to ''blame'', but our unwillingness to accept and conform the new ''them''. when things like these happen, who do you blame? Them or yourself? and when people change, do they actually change for the better or for the worst? don't anybody actually think of all these? I have to take extra caution because i know one wrong move and everything will be wholly different. i know this post sounds abit depressing, but this is just my two cents worth from this recent June hols. I only can ascertain something from this rich experience, and that is: I believe I have caused one great of a contribution, or probably one heck of a mess, and it's time for me to move on.

revelation

2011-06-12T05:21:00.003+08:00

I have definitely rekindled my long lost love in blogging again! So relieving to pour out my sorrows..k lah, now holidays, i should be saying more pleasing things, my happiness then, without having to care who will read or whatever.

In the past I don't even know why I was so self-conscious of what people say about me or think of me lor. Now I still am, of course we all have to be self-conscious..But to the extent of changing your own self to please others? That would be so wrong. And thank god hormones have kicked in the right time to bid goodbye to such immature things.

And since I'm talking about the past, last time I think I really was a loser. Like seriously, in soooo many ways. I don't even know how I got through the rough tides with choppy waves in my life. All I can say is, time was my greatest healer. Time really does heal all wounds, for me.

Spare me all the drama in my life. I don't wish to be bothered.

Now half of my holidays left! Shoot...

Just. Need. To. Sleep. More. :)

I just want to go engage myself in more sports too. Badminton, swimming, cycling...and not only running.

The news today of a guy in army who died while doing 2.4km still gives me much shivers on doing MINE when school reopens. Many times I run always cock up lor, not breathless, then legs will cramp. June Holiday Resolution? To improve my stamina and physical self.

RIP to that guy too..

I'll be keeping this more updated, that is, for the holidays..Not sure if I can manage to blog when school reopens...Can I?

Till here.

waiting

2011-06-11T03:52:00.002+08:00

you know what i hate most? waiting for an email to come back to you, but it never does.
it will probably get back to you a week later. but what can you do? you're only pathetically waiting for the other end.
this is probably the most irritating thing ever during PW.

i really abhor PW! But it's just a few more months! I'll bite the bullet with my members!!

and now i'm online to do history. gahhhh.

before i go,

for heaven's sake!

stop comparing jc and poly students together!

in the first place what is there to compare? the rigour? the amount of rest time? subjects?
there's nothing to compare! we all chose our different routes.

and now that i'm here in IJ, nothing will ever change the reason why i made this decision.

going mobile...and insane

2011-06-06T06:07:00.004+08:00

Woah I am SUCHHHHH a suaku! blogging from my phone for the first freaking time and this is definitely awesome...ok. enough hyping. :)I'M EXCITED FOR MY IPOD NANO WHICH I WILL BE COLLECTING TODAY I HOPE! YES I'M BEING RANDOM! HEHE! MY FIRST APPLE PRODUCT! How not to be?!?! well...before i stop, I finally FINISHED VAMPIRE DIARIES SEASON 1 (last year) AND SEASON 2(just now)! definitely a tear-jerker...i'm still not out of it actually! still thinking of stefan, elena and of course damon :\ Well its nice to be blogging again. I HOPE TO BE AS ACTIVE AS I CAN! ;-)

shocking encounter

2011-06-03T00:19:00.002+08:00

Have you ever faced a hypocrite?
That would say one thing and do the other, without a blink of an eye?
Gives me the shivers just thinking about it.

I daren't make things so obvious at first. But I feel, I'm 16 going 17 man. I do have my right to vent out my unhappiness right? Bottling up will only make me feel worse.

I lost my utter trust in you. How can you say that of me? And my friends? And most importantly, we are all under your care...Yet, I know I have to face you every single school day.

Oh...So doomed..

Sometimes I don't know whether you're sincere or not.. I used to like you alot because I feel you were different. You understood us too well, probably cause you have very little generation gap with us. But now, I'm standing more on the neutrality side.....will I go to the negative side? I hope so not.

How? How to survive these 2 friggin years? Oh the horror. :/

holidays

2011-05-31T01:12:00.004+08:00

SUMMER TEST IS OVER AND HOLIDAYS ARE OFFICIALLY HERE!

I'm officially loving the holidays!

I'm very grateful that I have a bunch of whacky friends(as do I) to talk and laugh with in school. JC really turned out unexpectedly than what I had in my head. Well, what can I say? If I don't take this break and make it useful, the next break will be like November? Omg. Hai...TT

I can't wait to go WWW, and all the shopping malls in the West, go makan, watch movies, go friends' houses. Ah! Fun fun fun fun fun :)

Anyway! Hehehehe! So excited to be back on blogger again! Will refurnish this place again! I can feel the dust here man!

Goodbye!

Back

2011-05-22T18:06:00.002+08:00

I'm back to blogger and I believe it has been XXXXX years!
Welllllll hiya again rawbutfresh. ;)
Thinking back, this ridiculous titie makes the hairs on my back stand!!! Why oh why did I think of such a comical title, tsk.

Cutting this post short as I have my Summer Test tomorrow! It will be a week.

(Never did I think will I be sitting for exams in a hall again)

I will inject my best effort.

To deliberately leave this post hanging, I always tend to ask myself this question..

Am I living a life that I want, or living a life that I need?

iwontevenstart

2010-05-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

What happened
After last summer
When we broke up
In September

I haven't seen you
Feels like a long time
Sometimes it still hurts
But I always get by

I still got a piece of you under my skin
It's always there no matter where I've been

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyway

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

I wish you luck
And I wish it true
That's the best
I can do for you

Cuz you'll probably find love
In someone new
I have to let go
Yeah it's hard to do

So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know it'll cut me like a knife

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyway

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

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2010-04-11T22:45:00.003+08:00

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bad day.

2010-01-23T03:23:00.003+08:00

For those who witnessed..you know. You saw. you probably heard.. Bah. These type of things how to control, you tell me?????

i'm fine now. (well thats what they all say)

i dont blame him. (lie)

i don't care. (worse lie ever in the 21st century)

jokes aside.(miracle i can still crack jokes in my current position lor),

im just feeling very mixed. as if the current situation is not complex enough, today sucked.

THRICE leh. my eyes fucking pain??? and i rub them, stupidly thinking it will help any of the pain. what a ratard i am, it got more itchy. _'_

Guess we all used to say, "It's only January! Slack lah, power, woo" all that shit you know??

But it seems so wrong this year! Well not that kinda wrong. But the most of the lot probably got all their energy sucked already..i am of no difference.

It's 23rd January and we're stressing ourselves like we are all deprived of water and there is only that one pathetic lake there and we just walked 50metres and we are dying of thirst already. So they really meant it when you're sec 4, "don't play play."

reality check,

2010-01-21T21:56:00.002+08:00

When I was in primary school, I had a Math teacher. And I remember quite clearly he was talking about Amaths . He said it was a higher level type of Math. At that moment, primary 5, I thought I was never, over my dead body, going to take up Amath in secondary school, since my Math in primary school can already kiss my ass.

Who would know I'll be taking Amaths now?..

That;s why I refuse to drop Amath. People keep tellng me, and some even blatantly scolding me stupid(_"_) for not taking up a Pure sub and dropping Amath, (i am a sensitive bitch so you are sooooo dead man).

One question to you ratards, my combination affects you???! Holy cowz! :O

So, yeah. End of my rant. I wish everyone, to the best of your ability to do well.

Y'know what, DO JUNYUAN PROUD, JUNYUAN CHAMPSSSSSSSSSSS!

pffftttttttttthetic.

2010-01-12T21:43:00.002+08:00

Sometime later, I have to send you away.. but I don't have the confidence to do that
You found the place that I was alone at.. Now you're gonna go back

I knew it was going to happen, but why does my heart hurt

Now you're gonna go back to your place because you found the love you wanted

I have to send you, a happy person, away with a smile..

Stress. Building. Up.

buy you a drank,

2010-01-03T05:13:00.006+08:00

it's 5.14am now. i really need to squeeze out at least complete homework out of me. damn it lazy me, i have to give family day a miss tomorrow. damnittohell.

what i did today w family was.. a simple but laughter-filled outing @ city square. ate @ Saizeriya(my 3rd favourite restaurant,1st being Spaghetti house, 2nd being Don) played bball @ timezone(if you read my twitter or facebook statuses you should know it) and i sweated like mad. afterwards we headed in picket and rail. i love how everything is so cottagey and vintage-y. and mum sorta asked if the designer there could come design my house. this is still in planning stage of course.but we're so used to ikea and stuff so i don't know how all this will work out. :-(

and i cannot be so greedy to squander madly. "can save, better save. save save save." lol-_- so it's either revamping or travelling. which would you pick if you were me?? :-( anyway thank goodness CNY is still far (from now) and i guess i'll have plenty of time to think about that later, hmmph.

on a side note, i am looking forward to ~~school~~ seeing back my friends & teachers. i believe i am not the only one that feels this way haha. i really am starting to miss tongtong and clique and all the other mates in class. i believe i will lmao when i see boys' hair especially chong's. LOL. but he'll probably laugh back at mine. so i better shut the fk up. -_- and i believe i will definitely smile like an idiot when i see aks. damnit i hope he doesn't catch me for like....anything!!! omg if he even catches me for smiling now that's really fked!!!! -_-!!

i am so happy. that i can finally have THAT chance to do a duet with dotdotdot. i simply can't wait for that and i hope my instructor will not cheat me. i never thought i'll have that chance!!!

sobsob!!

i have said it before(i think) and i will say it again. time really flies. i remember anticipating for this(december holidays) and now, it's already the third day of 2010, good lord. and monday will be the day every student will be awaiting for- school! waking up at 6. feeling that morning rush and "i can NOT miss that bus/mrt" and "hair must be neat", "skirt must be nicely folded(oops)" thought.

fellow mates,let's all work hard and see you all back in school on the 4th!

love & thank you for being my friend(how cliche hahahahaha)

and OMG i just heard the newspaper man ~~gently~~dumping my newspaper outside my house!!!!! you know what this means??? SLEEEP!!!!!

2009-12-31T19:09:00.001+08:00

got this from jemimah. i dont know if she'll be seeing this but. oh, this is too true. -_-

bffroflwaffle(:

2009-12-31T02:32:00.004+08:00

i just HAVE to finish my ace today. tomorrow's the 31st for christ sake. hell no i'm going to do any thing work related. 2010 is coming and it's pretty surreal man. can you still recall those fond moments in the early part of 2009? i still can, miraculously. bah, new year, back to school life, let's do it!! Pun intended. Oops. D:

digressing abit i bought a new pair of shoes from far east today. it's made of leathar,(put your tongue to the top of yer teeth and emphasise more on the thar) .yeah i luv to pronounce it this way, and it's so friggin' comfortable. it's like you're wearing nuthing i swear. i'll definitely wear it for my next holiday. why am i so happy? because i always buy the wrong kind of shoes. most times it's the size. everyone in my family has been going on and on about this. -_- it gets too tight and i end up with blisters and shit, which really totally spoils my overall appearance. so i am pinning all my hopes that this time, this pair is the one for me.

my new year resolution would be to stop swearing. like if i'm really angry, i swear, i guess that's fine...hah. but now i swear over the stupidest things. getting way out of hand. last time, i wouldn't even dare say the F word and now it's like becoming one of my daily words. damn straight. and also, i hope that i'll focus more. and stop getting distracted and stuff. i get distracted TOO easily. blame overly addictive Twitter and Facebook games. i guess this takes a LOT of self control. the rest, as shown below.

3.head to the gym whenever i can. i do not have to spill out the reason YES?

4.stop hanging out outside and thinking that i have all the time in the world when i don't.

5.minimize talking in class. consequences are dire. (angksangksangks)

6.minimize taking out handphone to sms/prank call ppl during lessontime. lmao.

7.i will still continue to throw paper balls at people when the teacher's not looking. goodie. :)

8.read more books!!

9.revise everyday. (yeah right)

10.sleep by 12..then..11...then..10pm.(uh huh you sure?)

11. minimize shopping. :-(

12. save up money and stop splurging. i dont grow money trees.

13. love rob.

14. love rob.

15. love rob.

16. love rob.

17. love rob.

18. love rob.

19. love rob.

20. do well for O's. (:

well to end this off. sometimes life gets you down but well we all have to understand that time waits for no man and we just gotta move on someday. the past is the past and well no point getting stuck there. i know what you're thinking. CLICHE. haha. ok. i thought 2009 passed pretty well, albeit there were problems occurring here and there, i've decided to just move on and just be positive with them. i hope 2010 would be a great year for all of us.

till here. smile. :-)

xmas!

2009-12-25T02:43:00.003+08:00

I wish everyone a merry christmas to whoever you are. :-)

Time really flies fast...and wow we're just a week away from going back to school again. Back to the same old routine. I find it sorta surreal. Even though we go through this every year, somehow, I feel something different this year. Probably because you wisen up as you go through different obstacles and stuff in life, that's how you grow up and start thinking mature. I think we should all count our blessings that we all can live a life, a life with your family, your closed ones and all. Not only Christmas we should spend time together with our loved ones, but every single day. Like I said, time flies fast so we'd better cherish every single thing, every single soul. Cliche as it sounds, we only live once. And I just wanted to bring up this important point of this mighty word called Cherishing.

Okay. Rambling again. Just had that sorta feeling, ya know? (maybe not.)
I'd better get back to my work..
By work I mean...for the almighty school. oh yeah! -_-

Meantime, see you whoever you ares... ;)

goodbye!

2009-12-19T02:06:00.002+08:00

Hello people. I'll be away for my long-awaited and long anticipated trip.
It's not very far. But still, it's a getaway. Like, literally, getting me away from everything that I'm occupied with.

Of course I'll miss the you-know-whos.

And I'll be like Santa's messenger and bring presents back. That is if I don't over-shop.

I thought of what to buy for my mum and dad, and my sis. Just wanna share.
For my mum, I'll get her a weighing scale. Not that kind of scale that measures your kgs and pounds, okay.
It's that baking one. Okay? -_-

For my dad, I'll be getting him.....maybe a new wallet. Coin pouch maybe. Something he can use daily and practical.
He's a practical guy. You know how fathers are. Ok,maybe not all fathers are like this.

As for my sister, she reads my blog so I cannot publish this.
But she's so in love with this now, I just have to get her this to "satisfy" her.
Ok. That sounded wrong. LOL.

Okay. I'll have to wake up at 5 again.
And I'll be leaving by first class...........coach..LOL.

Shut up I know what you're thinking!!

Just joking. Of course it may sound silly.
Who doesn't want to fly over. It'll probably take me like half an hour. Or less. Or an hour.

BUT THE FLIGHTS ARE FULL SO I CAN'T REALLY DEAL WITH THAT, CAN I. -_-??

And to fly there and pay more(compared to coach, of course) is a bit of a "unneccessary" thing right.

I mean, if you can save it, save it.

Probably I won't even be sleeping. I'll be Wifi-ing away. So toodles people. And see me back on Wednesday.

Thanks for all the tags and readers.
XOXO
:-))

forever means never.

2009-12-15T01:59:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 8 or so this morning. Bathed and all, played Cafe World, then I found out it was already 8.40. Had to be in school by 9. Was just a tad late. Had a meeting at the meeting room with Old Man till a late 10 o' clock++. That funny self proclaimed "hunk" -__-.

I have to do so many things but it's good that I have things to keep myself busy with. You don't think so much that way right!

I've been sleeping alot lately. Then today I realised I was sick. Sore throat. Not good. And I threw lots of tantrums. Lol..

My dad's car tyre burst. And I was like a mechanic and I helped to unscrew and turn that wedge thing or what, I don't know. But it was cool. Of course the tyre bursting part was obviously not. Unless you're sick. -_-

Then we found out the cause of it. Some metal needle.
How the heck did a sharp metal poke through that?!!?
If it's foul play, fuck that person man.

I'm interested to Maple again leh. How?

shawt update.

2009-12-14T01:22:00.004+08:00

So it's been a while since I last updated. Thanks for the tags guys. :-)

A couple of weeks before my guitar exam, and because of someone's request to play River flows in you, I was totally distracted to practice my pieces, scales especially, and my hands would have that "itchy feeling" - the kind when you have the urge to play Mahjong - to play the piano.

I find myself so weird. Always doing the wrong things at the wrong times. -_-
Totally the flippin' opposite of Mrs Oh's principle lah! Wth.

So I gradually started to play back the songs I used to play when I took piano then. Those were the days. But I'm actually quite happy they're gone man. The theory sucked. The main reason why I quit.

So the guitar exam...I was really terrified..cause the examiner being a lady, my coach said she would pick on what I would wear, how I cross my legs(-_-), and my hair(?!?). Like seriously, I really believed what he said. But it turns out the friggin' opposite! She was superbly friendly and jovial! And she smiled at me! So many times!!!! The exam went off pretty okay..I really have to count myself lucky...Then she told me to start piano again, somehow or rather she sorta knew I played it before. Professionals. Lol.
That moment I got abit upset lah. You know, the whole Why did I stop. I so regret it now blah blah. -_______-

Okay my exam was like...2 weeks ago. Whoops!!

Moving on.

A friend of mine, I call him Luke, has been staying over at my house..and we all have been hanging out alot recently. Today was no exception. Pearl, him and I went to ECP to ride bicycles(if you follow me on Twitter you should know lol)! It has been very very long since I last sat on one! And when I sat on it and pedalled, I lost my balance and almost had a 1-on-1 with the road. Road ok. =_=

When I got the hang of it........

the chain thingy came off and scared the bloody shit out of me!!!?!?!?!?!?
Luckily Luke fixed it. Whew.
But that "scarred" me and thus throughout the whole 1hour, I rode(pun intended,it's okay, i repeat, OKAY, to not be amused of this!!) in a slow pace.

Then we rode till the Bedok Jetty, idk, what Luke said. Then I had the sobsob moment while riding. You know those typical drama series. Look out the view..recollecting memories.. yeah. The sun set was lovely. But the stench of fish was a TURN OFF.

So cycled back...this time I could really feel the pressure in my calves.
And because of the very uncomfortable seat...my bum is hurting now..Yah..abit embarrassing to say but...it really does hurt alot...:-((((

Now I have to get off the chair very very slowly to prevent any further pain in the you know where....Till here..

2009-11-28T00:55:00.002+08:00

Never updated for god damn long already....

If I have interesting updates I'll definitely drop by again.

Till then. Seeya rawbutfresh!

2009-11-23T16:21:00.002+08:00

Who can i turn to..when my feelings overwhelm me...you can't tell anyone...

You have nobody but yourself to count on.

2009-11-21T15:02:00.001+08:00

我們的腳本要寫的好認真

我已經看過太多的悲劇

能給一點點笑就算是笑中帶淚

我也無所謂

rant

2009-11-13T21:46:00.005+08:00

Angry with some people. I know that I can never trust them anymore.

You should mind your actions.

For a liar.

Lying is sinful enough. Making up lies to cover your past lies and LYING again AND NOT EVEN BOTHERING TO CONFESS IS THE WORST OF THE WORST. Note that you cannot keep something from someone forever. You have to spit out the truth one fine day, whether the consequences are dire or not.

For a world class pretender.

Being a critic at people is "good" enough. You hate them and you don't even know them. For those blind followers who FOLLOW pretenders, have you heard of "blind leading the blind"?????

Wonderful. Round of applause.

For an attention wh0re.

Please don't just do it for the sake of attention.

We have eyes. We can see what you're feeding us.

Those bitches who intrude my personal life, my family and my butts', seriously just GTFO. Don't bother resolving it. Don't bother.

From one action, we see the true colours of someone. We know what you are capable of doing.

Because the wound is already inflicted.

A scar will be left behind.

Because of one matchstick, a fire starts.

All thanks to one person. Many are affected.

GROW UP, C'MON.

The same golden rule applies,

"DON'T KNOW ANYTHING, DON'T ASSUME."

And don't even bother to guess who is who. I'll only tell those who I feel need to know. Again, don't make assumptions. If your conscience is clear, there is nothing to be afraid of. I just needed to release what bothered me for so long.

To end it off formally, a question still bothers me.

"Why can't we treat everyone sincerely without asking for anything in return?"

But what does it bring, if I aint got you?

2009-11-11T20:41:00.005+08:00

Went out yesterday with butts, as well as Teresa, Regina, and how can we forget our lovely birthday girl,

ORLENA YEW

(honoured? hee hee)

Well we celebrated in advance. Met at Shaw at CS. Booked tickets for My Girlfriend Is An Agent.

Then we went to Seoul Garden! Yummy food. I had 3 rounds. Seriously yummy, but because we had to hurry, for the movie, we couldn't eat alot. Wasted. But it's alright.

The show was great. Very entertaining and funny.

After that walked around T1 and bought a ring from Diva.
That's probably it. Hope birthday girl enjoyed herself.

Pictures will probably be up on Facebook sooooooooooooooon. :-)

Later I'm gonna meet birthday girl again! Going for CCA Council lunch @ 18Chefs.
Hope Mr Ang will be touched by our lovely surprise for him. Heh.

Maybe I'm gonna rent some books @ eastpoint to bring for my Genting trip.

Shopping shopping shopping.

Money money money.

Sigh. :-(

To end it off, wishing two of my lovely friends,

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY ORLENA YEW AND ALVIS!!

uprising.

2009-11-08T23:47:00.002+08:00

I was actually fucked up with someone while SF-ing but turns out everything's good now, I even joined his clan LOL.

Hopefully I won't get too addicted to SF cuz it's just to pass my time.

Anyway wow...5 more minutes....

But I don't care, eh eh eh eh eh. I DON'T CARE.

Mark my words, mark it hard.

You're seriously not worth my time. So. Beat it, just beat it, yeah.

I stayed at home the whole entire day today. Very unproductive, which I hate.

Shall start doing constructive work starting from tomorrow.

May not be online much. Facebooking much.
Sigh, I have to stop playing and start doing more serious things already. :-(

Happy that Christmas is nearing!

sad.

2009-11-06T20:17:00.004+08:00

To tell you the truth, I'm really sad inside now.

For not being able to go out with butts for the Singapore Hit awards.
Sigh. really sad.

And so many other things to get over.

Like you.

What if human beings had no emotions?

"Are they thinking of me?"

Aren't holidays meant to be happy? Joyous?

Yet I'm cursed with all these.

I feel life sucks.

I hope that this horrible feeling will go away.
Cause who am I to get sad?

2009-11-05T16:31:00.003+08:00

Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around.

constellations.

2009-11-05T15:11:00.003+08:00

109 views. That's pretty awesome. Thank you anonymous people.
Don't know about how you guys think but I'm getting friggin bored with my song playlist already.

School was dull. Face it, I can never keep quiet during AKS lesson man. He'll force me to retort him back you know. Life's tough, hah. And History was moderate to me I guess.

No plans today. It was raining when I was dismissed. Had a short, but impactful talk with Aloy and Kitty. Which I really needed, after all that had happened. Tell myself not to brood about it anymore, still, the thoughts linger. Looking at the current situation, what can I say?

I ask myself,

"So who's to blame?"

Then I know in love, there's no right or wrong.

On to more positive stuffs, I'm home alone, which I like a lot! Yes!

Keep reading if you're interested in my updates. And click my ad if you can. Leave a tag to let me know you're here. I'm being rhetorical hah.

Alright. Bye!

straight through my heart

2009-11-04T21:10:00.004+08:00

At least I'm beginning to feel a lot better.

Drowning myself in work would keep me more occupied.

Concerns are appreciated, thanks.

Seriously what's the point of me thinking so much anyway?

Looking forward to whatever's ahead of me.

I will not talk so much during AKS's lessons anymore. Sheez.

Okay well, research time.

You don't know what a girl want

2009-11-04T16:59:00.006+08:00

Yeah, this is my first story
Say oh, oh, oh, baby, la, la, la, la, la
Say oh, oh, oh, honey, la, la, la, la, la

All men are the same
You don’t know anything, you couldn’t even get my hints
Oh gosh, you are driving me crazy

My new hairstyle and brand new shoes
When I ask how is it
You don’t know anything about it

Instead of using your credit card
Show me a troubled heart when I am mad
I can’t tell really your heart
Please tell me straight up

“I love you” that one sentence
How long are you going to be indecisive
Oh, from now on
Please tell me

One, when we hold hands please Intertwine them
Two, smile when i'm irritated
Don’t know, don’t know, don’t know, don’t know
Even when I tell you, you don’t know

Three, call don’t text
Four, make sure you make an eye contact when we talk
Don’t know, don’t know, don’t know, don’t know
You really don’t know my feeling

You don’t know what a girl wants
What a girl, what a girl wants

fog

2009-11-03T01:11:00.003+08:00

Many things are running in my mind now. Wild, I say. But surprisingly enough, I did not shed a tear. Yet. Maybe tears did well up. But I refuse to cry. Told myself to control. Harder than it looks.

Whatever.

Everything is coming back to me now. The past, everything.

Maybe we should. Maybe we shouldn't.

-

2009-11-02T21:52:00.003+08:00

I'm pissed. Never been so pissed at someone before.
Honoured?

badly bruised is all i can think of right now.

insomnia,

2009-11-01T06:49:00.004+08:00

Am pretty drained from doing stupid htmls and stuff for dailylifes and chronicles. don't get these sort of things and never will i.

oh well. it's going to be 7am. just remembered i had such a bad headache around 2am and i popped in 2 panadols, or that's what i think. usually panadols make me drowsy. true, my eyes are pretty tired but I JUST CAN'T SLEEP. uh hoh.

think i'll just skip sleep and make myself a tall glass of milk and a bowl of cereal. how about that? :-)

wow. am pretty energised now after typing that.

So,

GOOD MORNING, SUNDAY! :):):)

Halloween

2009-11-01T04:47:00.004+08:00

Happy Halloween isn't making me Happy anymore cause I found out that people are reading my blog without tagging!

>:-(

Was a boring day today. But least I spent good, much-needed quality time with family.

Aha. I saw a pair of lovely Lacoste shoes. You're mine!!!!! :-)

I don't wish for much now. Just wish he knows that I care. Simple enough?

you are my baby love, my baby love.

2009-10-30T01:33:00.003+08:00

Yes, please, go on adoring him.

Pictures make a blog much more attractive.

Teo, alright,maybe you diddddd influence me a bit, but then again, it's still me~ :D

Today was a really dull day. Came early and Ms Arnita asked me to wash my hands to cut chocolate cake for the buffet breakfast. Humorous as she is, since I was wielding a knife, she said she had to go to OM Tan to tell him that, in case I go around acting violently. LOL?

Since I did her a favour, she let me take a decent piece of the cake first. Tasted good, but I don't really like a cake that's too dry. I prefer cakes, chocolate cakes especially, with moisture. That will be HEAVEN. YUM. Um, but please, no icing or cream. Don't like that. I like them bitter!

-raises eyebrows-

Hah. Later don't know who wanted me to ask don't know who about something. Pity me for helping don't know who do such things. D:

Then it was movie screening time. SCHOOL OF ROCK.

A very nice show. Can't stop laughing at Jack Black's antics.

Then later it was newspaper collection time. Pretty fruitful, though most of the houses didn't respond to our knocks, some houses did and they really gave us a lot. One flat, in particular.

After school, Jo almost got ran down by a car. Lol!

Okay. Didn't see him at all today. Whereas others did. Should be able to decipher how I probably feel several hours ago, and now.

What else can I say.

ctxt

2009-10-29T23:14:00.001+08:00

Thanks Celia for choosing this wonderful template(taking off my tagboard, taking off my music and nuffnang ads). ;)

I want your everything as long as it's free,

2009-10-29T02:22:00.007+08:00

YAY. FINALLY DONE PUTTING UP THE TAGBOARD & SONGS.

HOW'S IT? Leave a tag. :)

I'm going for the sake of buffet breakfast tomorrow,sorry, later on, in like, 5 hours? LOL.

School is getting smarter in expecting full attendance from us, sheez.
Purposely putting an important "take back report book" with another shit boring activity. Nice one.

I gotten over the whole subject combination thing. Can't be bothered to appeal for a pure sub. I'll suck at it anyway. Oh well. Time to buck up my Chinese, 多讲华语!!

This TP trip was quite interesting. Though we had to walk alot. Up and down, left and right, diagonal, sideways, whatever you can think of. SO MUCH WALKING. URGH. AND WE ONLY TOOK THE LIFT ONCE. -.-

I'm actually interested in Engineering and Business. Okay, I'm saying that cause those were the only schools we went. LOL. Seriously, Diploma in Business isn't that bad. There's a very cute guy there, not the one everyone's eyeing on(the fair skin one), but the lecturer, Kelvin I think. Now that's cute! And there was another person called *coughs. LOL. He looked so cool, omg.

Guess it's either business or engineering if I make it to poly, but my eyes are still on JC. I pray to go JC. Please please.

Will be turning in now. A lil' update on my house, workers came and laid the cement. I had much trouble to come into the room to use the computer cause we couldn't step on it. Promised us that they'll do it within 3 days, now they say Friday then can finish. Paid so much money for all these shit. Kb. My house totally looks like a construction site now lah, walau.

cannonball

2009-10-27T22:40:00.001+08:00

Confused bitch is me.

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die

down down, we gonna get down,

2009-10-25T14:18:00.004+08:00

Decided that having profanities as a top post wouldn't be too sightly.
So, HI! :-)
Good that I have this blogging spirit back in me.

I'm going out later with family. And tomorrow with close ones,hopefully.

Yay. Finally,ugh. Have gotten over my horrible results of what I called "balanced", meaning, passing 4 subs and failing the other 4. :-(

And I'm happy, my house's gonna go through the renovation(finally), after much delaying. Three days, Mon-Wed. There'll be a lot of noise going on especially on Monday as they're gonna get what, tile-breakers and break the tiles!!
Thank goodness I'll be out. :P

And my newly moved neighbour, whom I just met now, guess what's his name.
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UNCLE PAUL! OMG. :O

DEVASTATED!!

2009-10-25T04:04:00.001+08:00

FUCK I TOTALLY SCREWED MY BLOG TEMPLATE.
FUCK FUCK.

...
My links and every shit out there is fucking gone.

Bloody hell!!!!

Stand by me 날 바라봐줘,

2009-10-25T03:20:00.007+08:00

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Alright. I'm done. How much I love this sentence.

Sick of funny weird thoughts of BU and all that kinda shit. At least everything's okay now. Those few days, no, weeks, of tiresome longing. A draggggggggggggggggggg.

And I love how I said "She's not my competitor. 他不是我的对手," to some lil' peanut. Yeah, that's how I see her. Don't bother guessing, she's not worth it. (oops)

And if you think there's a link from this paragraph to above, THERE ISN'T. Ok? :)

Think you can thank the heavens that I'm making a proper post.

Finally, something that shouts ME. Stay tuned!

I LOVE Ris Low. Seriously.

If I can't have you,

2009-10-25T02:25:00.003+08:00

I really wanted to make a proper post today.

But my mind's overflooded with too much thoughts. Ugh.

Anything, anything at all. As long as we can go back to how we were before.

2009-10-23T00:01:00.001+08:00

If you would describe my life as a boat, it's not sailing smoothly now. In fact I'm more upset than ever. Excluding the horrible results that includes a variety of grades from F9 onwards.

I keep asking myself Why. Why Why Why.

It has been 2 weeks already. 2 whole weeks.

Hello!

2009-10-12T01:40:00.002+08:00

Haha. It's like 2am now and I have Math and Physics tomorrow. Don't know how I'll do. I'm already thinking what can I keep myself preoccupied on Wednesday when the exams are over!

Ice skating? Bowling? Movie dates? Buffet? Book-reading? Working? Swimming? Can't wait ahh!

And I'll be doing a lot more blogging and catching up on my YouTube subscriptions. I can't wait. Meanwhile, I'll just hit back the books and mug till 4.

I'll do a lot more changes to this damned blog soon. Till then. ;)

shock!

2009-10-08T00:25:00.003+08:00

This sounds crazy but I totally didn't realise that

blog

OPEN.

Crazy much.

AnywayI'll be having my Math and Chinese papers in hours time. 8 hours to be exact. So. I'll stop here.

Good luck to everyone taking the exams!

2009-09-23T23:52:00.003+08:00

Through time.

Things change.

People change.

What's inconsolable..is that it's irreversible.

2009-09-21T22:20:00.003+08:00

My latest game addictions.

Friends For Sale.

Diner Dash.

Parking Dash.

Jubeat.

Toy-grabbing machines.

FFS. After several weeks of procrastination of playing FFS (I told myself never to play FFS), I gave in and in the end, turned out to be so addictive

! "Buy me buy me!"

Jubeat was like WOW. Totally amazing and fun. Haha, very fun!
And YMCA was pretty hard. But nevertheless still fun. Yay!
:):):)

Sigh. Can never ever get a toy from toy-grabbing machines. Like today, I tried thrice and, sigh, the toy just won't fall off. :-(

Diner and Parking are just some computer games. If I get bored or what. But I always get too engrossed and I don't blink so when the time comes and I blink, I realise my eyes get very strained and watery.. -.-

That's about it. I now have a big new pink soft toy

bear! Given by Axel for my belated birthday. Thanks!

Will upload pictures very sooon in Facebook about today! Turned out to be fun,today!

:-)

Looking forward to school tomorrow, haha. :D

2009-09-09T00:34:00.002+08:00

09/09/2009.

I'm not saying its your fault Although you could have done more

2009-09-06T00:47:00.001+08:00

To love or to be loved?

Life's full of wonders. Hahaha. :-))

2009-09-04T21:43:00.000+08:00

Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
There is something left in my head

Yes i know

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

That's why you go away I know

happy birthday, babe!

2009-09-01T21:52:00.005+08:00

Happy birthday Pamela, and may whatever you wish for come true. Luvs.

:-)

Had a fun day. Sentosa wasn't sucha bad idea afterall. What took me back was the weather. Strong winds. And hello, we were having our picnic near sea, which obviously has its natural breeze going on. So hair flew everywhere, followed by picnic stuffs. Haiz. I agree I wasn't 100% happy cause I was thinking alot bout my phone. Apparently, I was too engrossed in cooking, and cleaning, and cooking somemore, that I left my phone at Tan's house. Saddening lah. I felt lost.

Anyway, whatever lar, trained to Vivo after our memorable picnic, and went to, needless to say, Forever 21, River Island, Topshop, etc. Obviously?! We have a Branded Babe here! Referring to Pam, if ya don't know.

Afterwards, while walking on the way to the MRT, Tan and I got stopped at our tracks because of an "ex-offender"(who knows, she may not be one) claiming she needs our donations to get her back into the education path. Apparently, Teo and Loh(LOL) already went off, leaving me and Tan with her. -.-"

She sounded really sincere and all, but I'm good at lying too.

Ok. Fine. Im bad. Whatever! ~.~

Afterwards, went to 77th Street at Bugis. Teo and I pierced.

Hah, I should emphasise more on Teo, cause it's her first time having a piercing, make that 3! Well, now she has 3 holes. That sounds bloody wrong. Hah!

And she keeps saying it's surreal. Well she better believe it! Me? I pierced my third lor.

Am hoping for more, like really.

Pics are all at Facebook. I'll keep updating this blog. Even though I receive like little tags discourages me a teeny weeny bit. :-(

K lah,people. I go study liao. I will start chiong-ing now. Like really. I mean it. Won't online unless necessary,so, God bless that I won't have the urge to play computer.
I'll work hard now. I won't say 'harder', cause I never really worked hard at all.

Hope I won't do the same mistakes again. Until then, this blog wouldn't be updated.

Toooodlessssss. :-)

don't stop til' you get enough, get up!!

2009-08-31T00:48:00.003+08:00

Had Indian food today at some restaurant in DTE for dinner. Very delish! And the service was great. Spent over 70 dollars for it, but it was a rightful price to pay.

Then there was this horrible, simply horrible little white herb. It was only but millimetres thick, but when it was on my mouth, the taste of perfume diffused into my tonguebuds and omg, I almost vomitted. I had to take 4 Eclipse mints to get rid of the perfumy taste. Seriously, it's 100% perfume in there.

Any takers? :-)

Too bad, I was in a pretty horrible mood cause my parents and I could not see eye to eye at certain things, which fine, I can understand. But I just don't like it when they start dumping in things that are simply untrue. If you don't know about something/someone well, it's not right to say something about that person, especially something negative. Right? That's downright stereotyping, man, like what the fuck!

My blog is seriously life...less. Going through a financial crisis. Have to stinge and save on a number of things, and shopping. I do save lah, but, now I feel a harder pinch. :(

Talk about 'improving economy' lah, bullshit.

Baby please forget me not I want you to remember,

2009-08-29T00:25:00.002+08:00

Those were the times we had
Sharing a joy that we thought would last
Memories of love and affection
Never really was just like a dream
Was it the simple things
That made me so crazy about you

Damn, now I know I have Windows Movie Maker. Lol. -_-.

joke time!

2009-08-25T22:14:00.005+08:00

Oh and I wonder if this is funny to you guys. Sorry if I wasted your time...blah.

During the Ms Universe 2009, they announced that Heidi Montag would be performing.

Knowing that she's a total slutty whore(google her), I said "EW," very loudly to my dad. Of course, my dad was wondering why. So he "Huh?" And I wanted to say "SHE'S A BITCH." But instead I just said" Oh er, I don't know who one lah." -tries to break a laugh-
Funny anot?! What a leg to pull, what a leg.

Kk. Time to KO. Hah!!!! Get it?! Kk, time to KO?

Nevermind.

at the beginning

2009-08-25T21:55:00.004+08:00

We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through
Now here we are, I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope, you were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Knew there was somebody, somewhere
A new love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

Hoping that they'll talk to each other soon. Dearest ones.

nothing really lasts forever.

2009-08-23T00:50:00.003+08:00

I can't seem to think of 7 things I like about myself.

Rather, I can easily think of 10 things that I hate about myself.

So,so many things.

Being an adolescent does gives me an excuse to be a moody bitch.

Sigh, think of contentment,Paulynn. Contentment.

I have not been getting good nourishment this past few days.

Lunch- takeaway.

Dinner-takeaway.

I'm getting sick of seeing styrofoam and using dispensable forks.

I have stopped eating beef already and other meat except fish. Pork is okay but it's better that I eat 'em occasionally or something. Till...god knows when.

My hair is not making any improvement. Moving on.

Tests are also not faring well.

I'm dying to buy new clothes and accessories and everything and anything that I think ought to be bought. But now even after ignoring the financial issue, I can't seem to be in a mood to even get out of Tampines.

:-(

-gasp- Look at the time!! I better go sleep now! Bye!

smile a little smile for me,

2009-08-19T23:06:00.004+08:00

I don't know why, but now, I just feel like taking a nice long bus ride. Doesn't matter where it heads.
Time is passing way too fast. Sometimes I wish that time will slow down, but then again, getting something over and done with asap may be better too, rather than holding on.

Maybe I am holding on too much on the past. Maybe it's time I let go. Maybe, I shouldn't think about it anymore and just move on. But I'm afraid I can't.

Still, contentment makes a poor man rich. Thus I'm really trying hard to be contented. With whatever I have around me, and with me. With life. With a so-called pathetic phase I'm going through now. It's not easy but still, it's never too late to start. Contentment.

Cause I wish you were here,

2009-08-13T22:12:00.000+08:00

I'm pretty tired of this laziness in me.
Of not doing homework till the very last minute.
Of me failing tests, just cause I don't see the importance of them.
Then wham, 2 upcoming TAs.
I really am tired of this and more importantly, myself.
Seriously, what is happening to everything?
世界上，没有了我，也都一样.

I'm fucking sick and tired already. Weekends. So?
Attending useless tuition filled with noisy fucktards who add on to noise pollution.
Attending guitar lessons when there is simply no point anymore. Without ---.
Coming back home, doing every chore you can think of. No assistance. And both parents unfit for anything. That's fine. Just get used to it, right?

Fucking shit man. Some fucked up shit. I can't find any way to cheer myself up now.

Failing all the three sciences.
Failing both e and a maths.
English is deproving. Look at how Mrs K thinks of me now. What can I do?
Studies are like that. Family. No comments.

Who am I to think of aiming high now, when my life is all fucked up?
Who am I to dream?

what a wicked game it plays,

2009-08-13T21:43:00.000+08:00

Failed mostly all the tests I got back. If you asked me what was the last test I passed, I wouldn't answer you straight away. Cause it happened far too long ago, and I simply can't remember,ignoring STM.

I'm pretty upset at some things now. Tried to stop thinking, yet.

a funny moment.

2009-08-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

I was actually very sad and having the :( moment but after seeing this, I burst in laughter.

Finally, after watching Music Bank consecutively, I found out this band Norazo. God they're funny!!!

Bb!

sick;

2009-08-11T02:26:00.000+08:00

Feeling an unpleasant sour taste in the back of my mouth.
The more I cough, the more sour it seems to get.
E to the W...-_-..
And the phlegm.. oh my god..-_-..
The fever is going up and down like crazy. From 38.4..to 37.6..then 38.1..and afterwards 36.9.

And I slept 4 times today. Woke up @ 10am due to body aches and feeling extremely hot. Then slept, woke up, slept, woke up.

Feeling drowsy and nauseous now.
I hope I can make it on Wed.

Still, happy birthday Tan. You deserve this, and way much more. Happy 15th! Love.xoxo :):):):)

Goodnight. Shall be resting till dusk! Lol!

thankyou

2009-08-08T00:47:00.003+08:00

Thanking those who wished me happy birthday yesterday.
Thanking everyone who wished me today.
I really appreciate it!!
If you follow me on Twitter, you should know what I'm doing now!!

So yeah, I'm off!

Yes, I'm very high now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO YEAH, BYE!

2009-08-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

Trying to be as accurate as possible.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF. :)

If I fail, if I succeed, at least I live as I believe.

2009-08-07T23:17:00.001+08:00

It says 23:19 in my computer. I doubt I can sleep early today!
Thanking the people who gave me presents.

It doesn't matter where I am or what I get, it's the company. So thanking Pam,Tan and Shir for today's bbq. It was fun, though we were just playing cards.

And a thousand and million and trillion apologies to Shir. For dropping your phone. First time somemore.. Sorry Shirleen. :x

Though some issues cropped up, but really in life, we can't have everything we want. I don't blame them. All I want from them is to know that I did not change. I'm still their .. I'm not gonna change...I'm not gonna have any .. now, or 2 years from now, make that 2-5 years. Whichever they are happy with. I'm still gonna be me. I just want them to understand that fact. Is it that hard? Or is it all along, I was the one that have been giving them wrong signals? Maybe I was the cause of everything. If only. If only.

First and foremost, I hope that Tan had a great bbq today. Maybe she's still there grilling marshmallows, I don't know but still, I know she had fun!!
The helium, oh my gosh. So funny!
Of course, who suggested? Me!!
Then the balloons. Gosh, look at her, completely speechless. Aw...:)

Today's floorball was definitely a good match too. After the match, went back to class for a mini party. It was fun, playing Billie Jean, Nobody, and Toy Soldier and many many other songs. Please credit my phone for providing quality music, unlike Jeremy's. Oh my god, Seasons In The Sun? Lemon Tree?! And some song called PRETTY BOY?!?! Fine Jeremy, quits. -.-
Sheesh. I got quite high in the MJ songs and Nobody. Danced a bit to Nobody. Please, you guys enjoyed it right?!?!

Pam's sleeping now. Tan is, well you know who is she with now lah hor. Shirleen is probably at home too.

Though I can't celebrate my birthday with my relatives, I thank them that they gave me a card. Well, even though it was not from all of them, but only some, I appreciate it. Well, it's definitely better we stay this way right? I'm used to it anyway.

I shall go cut the cake now.
Goodnight everyone.

I'm trying so hard, not to cry, from all the Whitney songs. Sheeeeesh. i'm gonna fail....

Still, I will come back exactly 6 minutes later.

birthday celebration.

2009-08-06T22:32:00.007+08:00

I have been looking forward for 6th August for weeks. The surprise, or surprises I gotten were definitely memorable and sweet. Though it was just but a short dinner which lasted for a few hours, I appreciate the fact that they specially took time off to celebrate with me. Why would I ask for the sky, when I have all the stars in my palm?

I'm putting the details here so that even as the days,months and years past, and so long as my rawbutfresh is still well,"fresh", I will be able to read my archives and laugh and talk about it when I'm feeling bored or crappy.

The suspicion first fell in when I noticed Pam carrying a Taka bag with something aluminium-foily type of I dont know what the heck is that thing thing. Then you know what Pam told me? I remembered hor, Teo.
"What's in that bag, Pam?"
" No it's Tan's one. She ask me to bring for her one."
"What is it?"
" You so kp for what?"
" Er okay."
As I tried to peek inside, they kept insisting it was Tan's thing, Tan's thing.
What can I do. 2 V 1.

So, then when at Fish& Co. Well we ate there. Shall critic on the food later.
So many things, so little time sheesh. Anyway at Fish&Co Ms Tan went to the staff and gave the Taka bag to her, for I really dont know what reason. AT FIRST.

Then Pam misled me and said that that was a cake and it's for both me and Tan, since our birthdays both fall on Aug. So I was, well..okay? (you can totally imagine me saying that.)
THEN those two misled me AGAIN and said that this Fish&Co don't do birthday celebrations when I THOUGHT that they had something planned for me. So jian right. I believed them, you know. Then along all my suspicions, those two kept whispering sweet nothings to each other. If something is not going on, for the love of God please fk me. Ok ew. No.

For the cake, I hit it bullseye. But what came next was totally unexpected and the crimax.
Yah, crimax.

A male staff went up to me and asked me, "Okay whose birthday is it?"
I was totally shocked and gave the classic HUH look. I told him my name and he shaked my hand and wished me happy birthday. Then he requested for me to stand on the chair. Omg how I fucking feared that I'll fall off the chair or the chair will break or something. You know how light I am -coughs. And the chair. OMG WAS IT EVEN STRONG ENOUGH? It was like bamboo-ish, type. Omg.

As I stood on the chair, I held a sparkle. God knows how long I last held a sparkle. Which the sparks were sorta "raining" on my hand. But at that moment you really can't feel any pain at all. Only the feeling of embarrassment and awkwardness.

Then the staff said, oh my god I can remember," Okay there's a birthday girl in the house by the name of Paulynn!"
Then the staff members did a cheer.
Then they asked the people in the restaurant to sing me a happy birthday.
Now that I'm recollecting those memories, I can't help but smile about it. Gosh!!!

Then there it was. The cake that had been hiding in that Taka bag. Haha you're in my tummy right now. Okay what a joke. So it was a cake which Pam made. Carrot cake with self-made frosting with oreo if I'm not wrong. That was really super. Aw..:)

What was my wish?
Hahah, of course. I'm not gonna tell you. It won't come true otherwise. Harhar.
And I think I'll get another wish on the actual day itself? Hahahaah!

Oh they also gave me a blue heart necklace which was really another Aw.. moment. <3 style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-style: italic;">I hope that I won't throw my face during the NE Investiture.
I hope that I won't screw up in floorball.
More importantly,I hope that I'll be strong and not be so oversensitive and not think too much.
I'm too sensitive already lar. -.-!

I am looking forward to a greater day ahead.
Thank you Pam and Tan, Tan and Pam whichever sequence, for today. I love you two very much!! XOXOXOXOXO.

Goodnight sweethearts!

PS: And thank you so much Adelia, for wishing me via sms. That was really sweet of ya. :D

PPS: LOL I forgotten to critic about the food. Pictures aren't with me anyway. Hah!!

You break down my walls with the strength of your love

2009-08-04T22:45:00.007+08:00

It's coming to a Wednesday but I keep thinking tomorrow's a Thursday. And I'm not the only one feeling this way.

Well. I did something ridiculous today. Make that all the NE Champs. For the investiture, we have to make such an awkward entrance at the later part.. I'm praying I won't trip over a bag or a file. Planning to skip tomorrow's and Thurs' rehearsal. LMC is really very ks. Like seriously.

And something very saddening is that I left my SYF costume in the lab. Which really sucks. Really really really really really fucking sucks.

This week has been very hectic. Look at the amount of hair I've dropped. Ever since last week,we had taken at least 2 tests. This week there's 3. And the next, we'll have 2. I'm tired. Really tired. I don't have the extra energy to even talk at home. Now, I just either "mm" or "yah". Which my family is starting to get edgy about.

And tomorrow's PE. I'm planning to sweat out as much as I can. Releasing endorphins will make one feel good.

Aiming to pass my Amath TA. Since my Sciences are all like shit now.

Ending with a sigh. Goodnight.

Sigh. I don't even know whether I can even be in a joyous mood on my birthday. I mean. On the actual day. If I'm thinking too much, then fine. Case closed.
.
And guitar class tomorrow, he's not there. Rephrase. He will not be there till maybe Nov. What if he doesn't come back thereafter? I won't get to see him anymore. Why can't I at least have a beautiful ending to this?...

"the best is yet to be"

2009-08-04T01:31:00.007+08:00

Doing a quick one. School was okay. English was fun, as always. Something funny about Mrs K is that she talks about one thing, then links it to her own personal experience, and then later on she'll ask us "Where were we?" and then we'll all break out in laughter, or maybe just me, and the cycle continues. Of cause it's not funny if I'm saying it like that. Math. Mr Ang was weird. Asking me what's my problem when I don't even have one. (Even if I did, I wouldnt ask him) I was not even looking at him, btw. Pearl went for her night study today, and when she come back she told me that Mr Ang told her that my Maths was weak. Thanks. Like I don't know that. ==' And something funny was that Mr Ang wasn't in his usual working wear, but instead, he wore brown bermudas, a black shirt and he was wearing his spectacles. I tried to imagine that but, epic phail. If I saw him like that I think I would die from excessive laughter.

Hah. I'm screwed for Chem. Not even 1/2 of the revision done. I took a long nap today, from 6 to 10. I could not help it. It was straining and my eyes kept closing. And don't forget I slept at 4am yesterday, sigh. Again, could not help it..

I think tonight, I'll probably sleep at 3.

OH. One more thing that I'm really proud of. The NE investiture said that they were going to have rehearsals on Tues and Thurs. But I insisted that Thurs was a long day and that people ended at 4.45. Actually it was only one guy from 3E2. But I made it so dramatic that they made it on Wed. So my Thurs is off. It's not really cause of the long day, that I insisted on a Wednesday. Butts should know this.

I hope my mood won't ruin everything.
I hope I can control my emotions better.
I hope that I can change.
I hope I can see things positively.
I hope my family can get over this crisis.
I hope I can enjoy August with wonderful memories.

amused.

2009-08-02T17:29:00.001+08:00

I am very amused that I have a lot of homework and I'm still posting this shit.
Let's not forget I have yet to start on my revision.
Really very..very amused.

2009-07-31T23:43:00.001+08:00

Have to love the chorus.

"Sometimes you just gotta act like you don't care. That's the only way them boys learn."

Goodnight. XOXO.

Washed all the wisdom out of your mouth And gas danced on the edge of your bottom lip

2009-07-31T22:32:00.004+08:00

This guy's Chung Lim. Yes, he's Korean. Chung Lim. Imagine saying that over and over.
Chung Lim Chung Lim Chung Lim Chung Lim.

That was so...not hilarious.

Very bored now. Pam is bending rocks and Tan is not online. I have tons of homework and yet, I'm still downloading more K songs. It's a sure thing that I fail this Math TA. I only guarantee 4 marks for the first question. Pathetic, aren't I? For the rest, I'm filled with several uncertainties. But like what Xin Sheng say, " It's over. Forget it." Darn right.
I'd better move on.

And it will be harder now to try though, cause I won't be talking that much during Math lessons anymore. Not planning to.

Since I'm bored, tag me if you know what bending rocks mean.
No hint. Too ez.
LOL.
If Pam doesnt even know, that will be even more LOL.
No prize thou. Recession.

Ttfn.

FYI.
With reference of my previous post, I didn't see Ms Tham at all today. So I'm still inside this dumb NE shit. FML.

I like to make myself believe That planet earth turns slowly,

2009-07-31T00:10:00.004+08:00

Well hi!! I told myself to sleep before midnight but look at the time now. Fuck me. There is EM TA and I wanna pass this so much to prove to Ang that I ain't a failure. I remember I only passed both my EM and AM once...from Jan till now..:( But whatever. I hope I can at least pass. Just a pass. D:

Tomorrow got some stupid NE Investiture. I mean really, IS IT NECESSARY? Student Council, totally understandable. But just for an ordinary club, need Mrs Oh make us walk some red carpet on 7th Aug which is the day of the National Day celebrations WHICH is also a day before my birthday?! -if you guys have forgotten, coughs-

I blame Ms Tham for everything. For forcing me to be in NE Club. Ms Ross told me clearly and specifically that I'll only do competitions. Other than that, I'm not considered in NE Club. But when I told the exact same thing to that bitchwhore, guess what she said?

"I don't care you're in this club."

WOW
Wow.
Applause.

Lol. Two can play the game lor. You don't care, then all the more I'll do the same. I will fucking confront you and tell you I opt out for NE Club tomorrow, which is Friday. All along, I was only doing competitions for you. How gracious can I be. Sacrificed my June Hols for some pathetic competition. And I already made it clear to you GOD KNOWS HOW LONG AGO that Ms Ross told me I'm not in.

Oh yeah. I think Ms Tham is really exaggerating much. When I raise my voice, just a bit, A BIT to prove my stand that I'm not in the NE Club, she can show me that face and tell me that I'm being rude and disrespectful?!

HULLOOO?!
ON WHAT BASIS?!?
IF MY VOICE IS NATURALLY LOUDER THAN YOURS, THEN I'M RUDE AH.
IF I DON'T RAISE MY VOICE TO MAKE MY STAND, THEN WHAT, I WHISPER?
Wah afterwards more worse ah, you say what I act yi ge soft-spoken ger all that crap. Then I'll have nothing else to say already.

Walau. I can't believe I'm wasting prex. time on some FK who isn't worth of my time. Shall end my rant here. :)

Okay well, the only good thing about this NE investiture is that I can miss CCA.
That's all.
I'm not that bad to my juniors lar. I'll drop by and help, like duh-uh! Should I count myself lucky that I have 2 buddies and one of the buddy is Eurasian and her surname is James? How cool is that. She has nice facial features too. And she picks up things fast, which is totally a plus point. Aren't I lucky! Oh, the other one is also really nice and sweet. Into the Korean craze too. Woopie.

But there's a girl that has a bit of an AP(attitude problem). And last CCA session, I somemore keep telling her she very cute. She really does looks very cute, I swear to God. Has a very cute smile and all. But who knew, deep down.. What a pity. But, people can change right? Lol.

I'm looking out for a new phone now. Jeremy say if trade in before 1 year, for my phone, it's like $150 or maybe around there. I want a phone with WIFI.. So cool lor, wlau. But I guess, now I just have to wait. Maybe X'mas? Lol. Or worse still, next year birthday. -FAINTS-
But I don't know why, I don't wanna change my phone.. cause that would mean my number would change.. and I really love my number alot. So easy to remember. Right?!
But if you want a nice phone with all the functions you need/want, then it's a different story already. We need to make substantial sacrifices in life!!

Any good recommendations? Tell me yup. :=)

Ending here. Night. Tomorrow would be a boring Friday, I presume. No meet-ups whatsoever, but still, I can get a much-needed rest at home anyway. So well, goodnight. :=)

P/S: Does this smile look weird >>>>> :=) ??!?!

P/S/S: FUCKING TIRED NOW. BYE BYE.

If a promise ain't enough Then a touch says everything,

2009-07-27T00:20:00.003+08:00

This is a post solely to comfort myself and drag me out of my emotional state.

A week has gone, just like that. Before we know it, it'll be the EOY, and then the upcoming O's.
Time flies, so cherish every single moment. Don't stick to things that aren't worth your time.
The way I say it, it's like I know alot. I don't but, I've been there.

Very soon, this week is gonna fly very soon. I hope to absorb everything I see and hear. And for the things I missed out badly, I'll try to catch up.

Life is really short to think about unhappy things. Would you want to turn 30 and look back at your teen years, thinking of nothing but sadness and sorrow?

Instead, grab the ones you love near you and show them how much you care for them.

I should count my blessings and be contented with what I have now.
A home, a nice family and great friends.
Relatively stable education.
That's good enough to give me a lifetime of happiness and bliss.

Maybe not that much hair up in the head, maybe not the prettiest looking girl in the planet(but still, decent to look at), maybe not the smartest, but still, I'm unique. That goes out to everyone.

Oh. And my birthday is comin' up. That should be something good to look forward to. I don't like my birthdays to be on weekends, for some reason.
Oh, and I'm not hinting anything. Or so it seems.

Lastly, dear Pam is sick. Shall give her a nice, warm and touching shoutout for her to look at while she's at home and while I'm slogging my ass in school. Awz.

GET WELL SOON, TEO! :-)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.

And to Tan too, xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.

Great! I'm out of my emotional zone.

Goodnight! -happy-

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2009-07-20T00:26:00.018+08:00

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2009-07-17T22:42:00.008+08:00

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We sailed on together We drifted apart And here you are by my side

2009-07-14T23:11:00.010+08:00

Hi. Making a very brief post. Going to sleep soooooooooon. What a rush today. I enjoyed today's interview. Not as stringent as I've expected it to be. The interviewees were very friendly. Then afterwards, had to rush for tuition. Got abit mad coz of the rush. But at least, I didn't flare up. I guess this Term 3, there's gonna be physical changes to Junyuan,provided we have support. Let's hope the ideas can come to life, and not only rest on paper. What else, oh yeah. Tomorrow hopefully I can watch a horror movie with e butts. And there's PE tomorrow! I absolutely love floorball. Much better than volleyball, which always ends me up with very red wrists and palms. Ou yeah, I failed my Emath test! By a mark! Oh well. At least, I'm showing more interest during his lessons now. And today's tuition was worth it. I finally understood. What else... ou, I still have to plot 7 graphs later. SEVEN, holy shiz'. Ah, took random shots during Chem Pract. If I don't post 'em up, God knows when else can I find a chance to.

Lurv the blue.

Goodnight. (-;

Billie Jean,

2009-07-11T22:31:00.004+08:00

I have many insecurities. As if you guys don't have 'em. Bah. God knows when will I start posting proper again. Or is this proper enough for you? Tired. Restless. Bored. And an urgent need of much-lacked retail therapy. But the lack of cash + feeling the pinch to splurge makes it a lot harder. Still, I will never ever pursue the path of greediness to achieve both.

Been hogging the computer for hours. Missed tuition. I didn't miss tuition just for the sake of computer lah. Got an earful from parents. Imagine, getting a hard core scolding when you have just woken up. That sucks. But that's the way they show how much they care. Aw.

Once the pictures are up by Celia, will start talking about yesterday. Which was, really really fun. So fun that I don't even know where to start. So Tan, you know what to do!

Not sleeping yet cause I haven't taken dinner but still, night!

And when the rain is falling, I don't feel it.

2009-07-11T01:52:00.003+08:00

I just watched a Korean or Cor-ren(as Pear pronounces) horror flick, I'm kinda freaked out now so I can't really get to sleep so soon. The most shocking part of it was that I found out that the cute guy I observed in the movie was actually Kim Bum. Anyway, I will post a proper one tentatively tomororow. You see, I am even this lazy to the extent that I don't even bother to press Enter to keep every sentence to the left, which I usually will do. I guess I'm gonna fall asleep soon. There's tuition tomorrow @ 10am and I'm sick and tired of it but I'll still go and jjdsdfkpsjyirdlcvkmvlkasdoiajdotghaoekjfalkdjfghuorhvnkfsjoghwrf. Goodnight.

Smile, though your heart is aching,

2009-07-08T21:37:00.005+08:00

The cookies Ms Ross gave us. Of course, mine's more chio-er!
It's the more colourful one of course!

The MJ I drew during History!

I think I did a pretty good job, ya know! First time!

Class was quite alright today.
We had a change of seating arrangement. I know many are disliking it.
Oh well.
I'm sitting right at the back of the class.
I can do many things like, munch prawn crackers, sms, you know.

Just like how Mr Ang caught me today. Almost.
Whew. Thank god I swallowed them crackers + drank water.
So he believed I was just drinking water.
Close shave!
I could somemore say," Just because I have a cookie on my table doesn't mean I'm eating!"
That shut him up!

And er, as quoted by Pam, I have the "Christian Face".
So if I lie, I can pull it off. Just like that.
Hah.
But oh come ON, people. I wouldnt lie to YOU guys.
:-)

Oh yes yes. I laughed alot during English.
For some reason, Mrs Khanal has a dark humour in her and only I seem to be the one who can decipher it.
Or maybe, it's just me.
-.-

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well that's all I'm after
Whenever you need me, I'll be there
I'll be there to protect you
With an unselfish love I respect you
Just call my name and I'll be there

RIP Michael Jackson.

(x)

2009-07-07T21:09:00.004+08:00

I'm not gonna say so much. At this point, me saying anything wouldn't help solve this, right?
We are clearly meant to be on different sides from the start.
If the intended impact of this is to make me feel a tinge of guilt, CONGRATULATIONS.

You did it. Way to go.

I refuse to make any other comment to anyone else but them about this if you want to know what's happening.

Until then, keep blaming me then. What can I do?
I already said it out already, think I can take it back?
Or do you want me to apologise to you and make up again?

This is sooooooooooo primary school.

Cause I don't think that my heart can take much more,

2009-07-06T17:57:00.006+08:00

Lol. To start off, I think I'm seeing things with a double vision.
I just saw Michael Jackson's "Bad" as "Bald".

I think this is God's will telling me I'm heading towards the balding phase..:(
Sigh. And the hair tonic requires me to be 18 and above for safe usage.
What the buck.
It's mine but I can't use it. And in 3 years time, it will dry up and probably vapourise. (Lollllllll.)
Well okay, it's not mine. Someone in my family uses it. Not telling who!
I love him/her too much to say. ;)
Maybe my close pals will know..
...
...
...
...
...
...
.

Ok.

I just sat down for hours in my room and did finish a few sets of homework.
I'm left with a ESSS Physics paper. 1 more Amath assignment.
I'm very lazy to do both.
And I'm planning to sleep early tonight.
Like, 9pm.
It will be hard. For someone who sleeps at 2,3,4am.
But, you never know if you never try.

"Some teens experience emotional problems such as depression if they don't get enough sleep.
You might also feel irritable, cranky, or more emotional than usual. Not getting enough sleep can also contribute to skin problems, such as acne.

What happens if you don't get enough sleep? Plenty. You'll probably feel very sleepy during the day and you may have trouble staying awake in class. This can affect your ability to concentrate, make good judgments, and get good grades.

But this number can be hard to reach - you don't need to be a math whiz to figure out that if you wake up for school at 6 AM, you'd have to go to bed at 9 PM to reach the 9-hour mark.."

Oh. Guess what.
My computer room is hot as hell, whereas my living room is filled with a scent of satin musk and the aircon is on.
Maybe I'll do my homework over there.

So yeah, sayonara people.
:)

hate it.

2009-07-03T01:16:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow there's a biology test.
I'm still using the computer.
I simply have no mood to study.
Fuck my life. I can never make it for Bio or Amath already.

Nights.

Remembering the legend.

2009-06-28T00:03:00.006+08:00

It might be a tad late, but better late than never right?

It was 11am in the morning, and my mum shook me up from my sweet sweet dream, telling me that Michael Jackson was dead.
I had the shock of my life.
Rushed to the room, and CNN and BBC( and CNA) spilt headline news all over.
And that glued me to the TV screen for hours.

I had great memories.

My parents bought his Ghost album in I-Don't-Know-What year.
And I remember vividly seeing his trademark long music videos over at my friend's house, which was just metres away from my home.
How have I and that friend of mine drifted now,though we bump into each other every now and then.

I remember getting very freaked out when I saw him transform to this werewolf.
Imagine when you're like in, kindergarten, sitting so near the TV, and seeing that!
Haha, I can even remember saying to my friend this,

"Faster! Horror movie starting liao!"

Uh..I was young then. Gimme a break.

And then around 2000 or so, there was this interview, also from TV, when MJ talked about his Neverland Ranch and about his alleged case of molesting little boys.
Very pitiful..

News said that he collapsed due to cardiac arrest. If that's the case, then it must be the press who kept making rude insults about him, and giving him ridiculous comments everytime he goes somewhere, that made MJ's health take a downhill.

If he wasn't stressed with all that media crap, he could have lived long enough to do his 50th show.
Wouldn't that be awesome?

And I can't believe I was listening to Billie Jean days before MJ's death.

What Teo said was true in Facebook,

"Why do we only cherish one when his being is gone?"

RIP Michael.

A baking session, sweeter than Caster.

2009-06-25T21:34:00.007+08:00

Today was definitely not a day I expected.
In a good way, of course.

I was late. I think, my Acute Direction Disorder is getting better already?
Don't bother googling that. You won't know what you might get from Google.

I can take a bus by myself to Bedok Stn.
I think that's a big feat, for I tend to get lost.
Twice. Or even more.
So, met them @ the ticket office. Proceeded to buy our baking needs @ Red Man.
I paid $12.
But if being broke for the rest of this week means having a fun baking session, why not?
I think, some things are worth saving, and some things are really not. This definitely applies for the latter.

Walking over to Red Man was already a mad long, tiring distance.
Walking to Celia's house was worse than I thought.
The weather was definitely not on our side.
But a lil' workout won't kill, I guess.
We were, afterall, gonna chomp on delectable cupcakes later on!
And it's not that often I get out of my comfort zone.
I was already very elated that my parents let me out.

..
..
..
...
..

OK.

Once at her house, greeted her dad.

Celia's dad is really a funny dude!
He was really kind enough to help us with the whisking of the messy batter!
He even suggested putting the batter into a blender, which was really funny!!
Our stomachs ached from laughter!!!

I kept telling C that's where she got her funny bone - family.

Not forgetting her mum, who was really afraid of the earthworm she noticed in the toilet!
Luckily Uncle came to the rescue and took it with his bare hands and some tissue!!
Whereas Auntie ran for her life to the living room with a mop!!
Again, another stomach ache!!!!!
All I can say is,
EPIC!!

Then we had dinner (friggin long noodles with meatballs and eggs and fishcakes),
which because of the Earthworm Incident(E.I) made me lose my appetite.
Thankfully my good friend C helped me with it.

Let's see, Celia spilt Pepsi over the table.
Victims- Me. Teo. Laptop. My HP. Floor.
Another epic moment.

Ohohoh another one was when we were all talking and then something happened(i forgot)[Pamela editting: Paulynn could not finish her noodles, Tan took it, fine. But, tan put it in my bowl. I said "OH! NO!!") and then Auntie suddenly said something like "Simi daiji?!"
(i forgotten what Auntie really said.)
Mad hilarious.
Another. Stomach. Ache.

Afterwards, Teo recalled this matter while eating her noodles and she spitted them out or something?
That's Teo alright.[Pamela Editting: I did not spit out the noodles, I had a bad throat and some sloppy nose and I had difficulty breathing, I did not spit out my noodles and that is not me alright. I hate being maligned. I repeat again, I hate being maligned.]

What a day. Totally eventful. Totally unexpected. Me like.

Now it's time, to really catch up on what we miss out during the holidays.
I'm talking about the crappy homework.

And then H1n1 worsens.
Saddening.

I pray. Pray for better and brighter days ahead of all of us.

Until here, I shall engage in Facebook applications again.

Tata!

grace given is a grace received

2009-06-23T17:37:00.008+08:00

Overslept for the first day of some Innovation Protocol Training.
Thankfully, I woke up pretty early today, like 7.15, to get ready for this proclaimed "fun" training.

When I went up the stairs, I was really friggin' thirsty!
These days, I don't know if it's coz I sleep late or what, I get very very thirsty easily.
Then after drinking, I go to the loo.
And then I refill my water, and the cycle repeats.
It's crazy!!!!
It's something I cannot control!!!
I think Teoteo rubbed off too much on me!!!!

So anyway.
They kept telling me how fun was it on Monday when they played Lego and built the longest bridge.

I kept playing with Brian's iPhone and then, over @ Ikea, I saw something in his iPhone that I should not have seen.
Promised to help keep this a confidential thing.
Anyway I'm sorry okay, Brian. I was just toying around with the buttons. :(

Ms Megan Hong brought us around Ikea.
Which was actually alright, abit boring, but alright.
Then she treated us ice cream! Not in a cone, but that's okay.
Then Mdm Saleha gave us an hour of free time.
That hour passed very fast.
Ate mee goreng, then I got myself a dog and a drink.
Thank god I brought $2 with me.
I only had that $2 in my wallet!!

After eating, Xin Sheng suddenly talked about family planning.
"When I'm 20, I'll buy a house. And then 25, I'll buy the furniture."
Something like that.
And Jia Yan said that she wanted to have children at the age of 25,26,27.
And I got intrigued so the whole bunch of us started talking.
Funny. But pretty redundant. Hah.

Okay. Afterwards, went back JYSS and we were really tired and sleepy already.
So we pretty much slacked and I started playing with the iPhone again.
I played some game called "Tap Tap 2" and it was similar to GH.
Very cool.
But Brian's music selection is pathetic!
I mean,
Camp Rock?
MILEY CYRUS BREAKOUT ALBUM?
AND WHAT,
SUITE LIFE ON DECK?!?
Such a Disney crazed fanatic!
Brian, if you read this, I'm sorry, again.

Then one thing that irritated me was that I could not find the Flash in my Viewty. _l_
I got so pissed I sms'ed my sis. She called me back to tell me how but still, epic fail.

Anyway, my dad just told me I can collect back my 760i already.
It's still under 1 year warranty!! :)
I think they will help me put on a new coat of paint since they put in the form
"paint peeled off".

I'll miss the camera functions of the Viewty. Aw.

OHH.
WE SAW " GROOM MY ROOM " FILIMING TODAY @ IKEA.
WE MET KIM! :):):)

So while we were having our break, Alvis helped us get autographs!! :)

Random pictures!
I took them, while I was trying to get some flash out of my Viewty.

Too lazy to re-arrange.

I'm heading out now.
I'm dying to shed off the extra weight!

XOXO

just one more time, one more time, look at me Now I'm crying

2009-06-20T16:59:00.004+08:00

"Some say love, it is a river
that drowns the tender reed.

Some say love, it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed.

Some say love, it is a hunger,
an endless aching need.

I say love, it is a flower,
and you it's only seed."

I was actually in my very chirpy mood when I karaoke-d just now!
Singing is my #1 stress reliever now I guess.
Next would be shopping.
Retail therapy really helps, especially us girls.
But it sucks when you are shit broke.
-_-

Now I'm listening to Korean songs.
I figured that the catchy songs, can really be very catchy.
And the sad songs, can also be very very heartwrenching.

I enjoyed 2pm's Hate You alot. :)
Watch and you'll know why.

Parents delayed in Genting for an hour. Hope they're okay.
Can't wait to see them, or rather, the things they bought for me.
Hahah.

Okay.
One more thing.
I CREATED TWITTER.:)
Even though I faced some rejections about it,but still,
follow me!

XOXO.

revelry

2009-06-19T22:14:00.003+08:00

Had fun with the T duo today. Being with them, definitely enjoyable.
I think they should be really blessed to have a friend like me!

Anyway.
Slept late the previous night. At first, I woke up very very early, like 8am!
Then I slept back. This continued on at 8.30, 9 and until 9.30, I could not bear to wake up and off the alarms. Therefore, yours truly went back to Slumberland.
And the consequences are, I woke up @ 1.
The worst thing is, the T duo are coming @ 1..
I quote Bride Wars " Mother F" !!!!

So, panicky me, grabbed clothes and rushed to the toilet to shower!

Then I heard a voice calling out " PAULYNN YONG. PAULYNN YONG." repeatedly.
It was Teoteo.
While showering, I was breaking out in cold sweat.
" Hurry up Paul! They are waiting for you!!"
That thought raced through my mind several times.
I offed the tap, and hurriedly grabbed my toothbrush and squeezed paste out.
My hands were shivering with fright.
Then, I realised my hair still contained soap. (E to the W)
" No way.." I thought.
I rushed to the tap and water gushed profusely to my scalp.
I heaved a sigh of relief.

Okay. Enough of that.

Skipping the little itty bitty details, we "KTV-ed" alot with my fucking laggy shit computer!
The best part of this KTV is that it's entirely FOC!
And like, it's pretty accurate too, ya know.
Got reputation one.

Pam really loves the Rocky theme song, "Eye Of The Tiger"!!
For several hours, she was singing that song.
Leaving me and Tantan speechless. -_-

And when I sing my "Truly Madly Deeply", I can't sing alone,cause she'll sing with!
How -_-!

Tell me, why do I have such a bestie huh!!
And why do I also have another one who is so "jian"?!
Who takes my shirt and deems it as hers!
Damn!

Ordered Mac. We wanted 10 chili sachets, but when the food arrived, there was no condiments at all!
And there were no straws too!
How convenient!
So, Tantan rang Tampines West CC( proclaimed the "nearest" Macdelivery).
And the operator claimed that they will deliver the condiments now.
Which practically took us, 10-15mins?

But anyhow, it was fulling.
While watching the movie 27 Dresses, Tantan was iGalloping.
-_-

Anyway, they came for like, half a day.
That's about it. Fun day, as usual. :)

So, they'll be leaving SG to their respective destinations.
Blah.
Till then, I don't think I'll online that much.
I'll get busy with losing some of the extra weight while they're gone.
Argh.

I hope, time will really pass fast.

Till then, sayonara!

XOXO

You dont know what ya got until its gone

2009-06-13T21:58:00.003+08:00

Now being without you
Takes a lot of getting used to
Should learn to live with it
But I dont want to

Teoteo and Tantan's at it again. -Roll Eyes-
But I have to admit. I look super chio in those pictures right!
Please, comparing looks between Susan Boyle & ME?
Come on. You know who will emerge as the winner.
You know it. I know it.
Obviously.. Susan won me... Sigh....
: )

Today was definitely not my day. Messed up alot interpersonally.
Oh well. Tomorrow will be better right?(I hope..)

To end of this post, it's Saturday, 2205h.
Lol. Kidding.

Read this.

吃醋是因为喜欢
生气是因为在乎
发呆是因为想念
伤心是因为不想失去.

I don't know how much can I agree with this.

Till here.
XOXO.

2009-06-13T14:46:00.011+08:00

(Clickable)
Please admire my beauty.
As I said earlier on, I'm so fucking bored that I'm now using Teoteo's account to update..
Well.. Yes.
So, ain't I a beauty?
Comparable to Susan Boyle, right?

Yes!
Susan gave me the thumbs up and the go-ahead!! :-)
Okay, bye now..
And..
DON'T FORGET.

I am sibei not chio.

Crazy

2009-06-13T14:25:00.002+08:00

Hello.
A short update.
Please click on th picture to enlarge.
I think I look gorgeous.
Dont I?
I'm now using Tan's account to blog on my blog.
That simply proves how bored I am.
Okay, I hope she wont kill me.
Bye.

2009-06-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

(clickable)

Yes, you can see how ____ (Insert words of your choice) Paul look like.

Paulynn, is a galla.

just leave me your stardust to remember you by

2009-06-11T20:14:00.005+08:00

Well hello. I'm back after a great day out with the disaster T duo - Teoteo and Tantan.
As the word disaster suggests, being with those two = disaster.

Asked me to meet them at 1 @ Bedok inter.
However, I failed to read the message properly and went to wait @ MRT instead.
Doesn't matter cause in the end, I was still earlier than them @ the interchange.
And the weather was fucking hot lah,cb! How irritating!

Walked close to a mile(google how long is a mile and you'll find out how long it is) to reach that KTV @ some Chai Chee Community Club.
THE WEATHER WAS NOT HELPING AT ALL!!

When we reached there, the gate was closed and then Tan opened her mouth and told us that the CC opens at 2. When it was only 1.40pm.
THANKS SO MUCH.
Waited at a void deck near the CC and sat down.
Poor Teo. So suay.
The chair had ~~bird's you-know-what~~ CEMENT. and she sat on it and it stained her skirt.
Heck, she was pissed.
Forever 21 skirt leh.
She was wearing everything Forever 21 lah. F21 Girl. -_-

But my Lakerol sweets lightened the atmosphere. ^^/

So once the CC opened, we went in and there were lots of people like us waiting too.
After waiting for so long, we ordered our drinks, and went into the KTV room.

Our room was the nearest to the F&B counter.
Lol. Not forgetting the toilet.
Convenient man.

At first, of course, I was shy.
I mean. My first time leh. Of course shy one lah... :(

BUT THE REST WAS HISTORY KKZ.

I crawled out of her turtle shell and sang.
Damn. My voice totally screams " QUALITY. PITCHED-PERFECT."

We sang many many songs!
I knew most of Jay Chou's!
And um, unlike some people who murmured their way through, I sang clearly. :)

I think on a scale of 1-10, I could get 8 alright. ^^

Ordered cheese fries. $7 ok.
I paid $5 while Pam paid $2.
When the fries came, Pam was like eating and eating like she never ate for 3 years lah.
-_-

Then Pam told me news. Very sad news.
How can I not be sad about it, you tell me?..
I'll set that aside for now..

I think, we sang hell lots of songs.
But Tan just loves to change MY SONG. -_-
Then there was my favourite Bee Gees song "More Than A Woman".
Then ABBA.
When Pam saw ABBA she was like "ABBA ABBA ABBA!!!"
She said that pretty fast. You can imagine how that sounded.

~~Then Celia said Pam pronounced it wrongly and it should be "Eh-Ba" or something I don't know.~~
Oops. Typo.
Supposed to be.
Celia said it was " Eh-Bah"
But truth is, it's pronounced as "Ah-Bah"
So she's wrong. That's all.
Kk. Moving on.

We took pictures!
BUT.
I'm having problems with the uploading.
I'll save them later from Celia's blog.

After that, Mum called.
Time to go.
Bought famous Pontian noodles for my sister, took away Subway from Tampines One, and left Pam and Celia eating there.

It was a fun outing.
I'm relieved that my parents didn't scold me when I got back around 7+..
Instead. Mum shared cookies and my Sub with me!

I hope, I can go out with them again soon.

XOXO

Going out!

2009-06-10T15:04:00.004+08:00

Going for as they call it, CCA "BBQ" now.
However they said that Mdm Seah will order catering.
Loll... I have to see it for myself..
I am still not ready to go off just yet.
Need to decide what to wear.
Need to decide what to bring.
I'm always like this. Last minute preparations.

After this, will go for guitar @ 7+. Will be back around 8 or so.
Actually, I don't want to go. I don't want to see faces that piss me off.
But, I have to think of my future. And if I skip this, it is still counted as 1 lesson.
I don't want to waste my money. I'm so poor already,fuck.

Hopefully, I won't get lost while taking the bus.

Don't miss me. Bye!

Celia's so hot!

2009-06-09T20:23:00.002+08:00

Hello. Celia is here to help her post.
She does not know about it, sheeeesh.
She keeps on acting cute, on th webcam
I was eating!
Okay, anyway,
she just me to tell you guys:
CELIA SO HOT!

iflml

2009-06-08T23:15:00.005+08:00

Doing a short update. Once I sync my songs in, I'll turn in.
I came back too late I guess. Now Pam and Celia aren't online.
Sigh. Well. We all have to wake up early tomorrow. So yeah.

Tomorrow's workshop will be hell. 8am to 6pm.
That's like the number of hours my dad works everyday.
Shit me for listening to Ms Tham.
Wait.
I didn't listen to her.
She forced me.
Shall not talk about that bitch anymore.
Since I'm in, I can't back out.
Going to Riverside Secondary.
Which is in Woodlands.
I told Pam and Celia something like, if I could get a cute guy's number there or something.
LOL.
-_-.
Shall not elaborate more.

Went to celebrate my sister's birthday today.
Saizeriya closed. :(
So had to settle for some shitty HK cafe.
The food was fucking mediocre lah.
Anyway happy birthday, Pearl!

There are some shops in Liang Court that has like 50% discount!
And one shirt was like $20. So it would be $10 after disc.!
However, the shirts are really those common, indifferent shirts where you see in Bugis.
But there were some that really caught my eye.

I'm in a shopping mood now!
Shopping online excited me!
Seriously, I need more apparels...

I think I'm having severe hormonal changes.

Sigh.
If I can't wake up on time tomorrow, I won't go for the workshop.

I can't wait for Thursday.
And Wed there is BBQ.
And there is workshop.. plus I have guitar lessons on that day...
One word : PATHETIC.

Goodnight.

XOXO

I wish i'd never fallen in love... so deeply I wish i'd never knew that love... actually exists

2009-06-06T16:04:00.001+08:00

Just a simple one liner post.

Goodbye. :)

update!!!!

2009-06-06T01:50:00.002+08:00

Omg.
Alright.
Updating again.
I'm bored!!
青花瓷 is playing over and over again.
And I can't really get the lyrics!!
When I sing them, I sound like some kiddo learning Chinese from some Cheena Language School.
Or maybe, like some AM. ( Ang moh ).

Whatever.
Ciao.

XOXO

天青色等烟雨　而我在等你 .

2009-06-06T01:32:00.003+08:00

I might be slow..
But just telling you guys..

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I love Jay Chou's 青花瓷. Alot..

Went Far East today with my mum.
I enjoyed a day out with her.
I feel like she's my friend.

Just that, this friend is someone, who knows me well, excluding Pam.

We talked about things..
Some were sad. Some were things I cannot bear to face.
You know it.. I won't say it over here.
It's a blessing everyday. To live. Cherish your life, people.
Cherish the ones around you. Cherish the little details that you take for granted.

Off to happier, light-hearted things.

Many things happened lately. Shall summarise. Please. Look at the time. It says 1.44am! Gosh!

1) Went shopping online again. Going to be broke. But it's all worth it. I'm happy. Or at least try to be.

2) Cut my hair. It's neater. But still, hair is gone. Shall not talk about it.

3) Bought pumps. Like finally. But I had to expand them cause it was the last pair and I really wanted it but there wasn't my size. So yes. I waited in total, 6 minutes for them to get expanded.
Worth it. Simply worth it.

4) Sister's birthday coming up reall quick. Gonna get her birthday present soon. It'll be a major surprise for her. I can imagine her reaction.
Only, when can I get her present with no money?!

5) Done abit of my Amath revision. Quite satisfied. But of course, I still have way more to finish.
Not gonna give up on my Amath.
Actually, not giving up on all of my subjects.
I'm hanging on to them for dear life. Unless, statistics tell me to give them up.

Lastly, I think I'm getting more feminine!!
Pam and Celia told me that!! :):):):):)

Take care to whoever is reading this.
Cause yours truly is getting sick. Again. Darn weather.

I really wonder who reads my blog anyway.

XOXO.

mixed feelings.

2009-06-03T21:52:00.003+08:00

I finally got over him.
Yes. Him. You don't have to know who.
It was a one sided thing.
I'm glad I did.
Who knew he was such a person?..
I can't see him the same way I did before anymore.

To add on to the bad stuffs, I can't take my guitar examination on August anymore...
That means, Grade 4 this Dec.
Then Grade 5 next year?
I was planning to finish everything this year.
Next year would be too crucial for me.
But Fate did this to me.
What can I do?
I can only blame myself.

On to better stuffs,
Instructor said I can DSA to either VJC or TJC.
That's very nice to hear.
If my results are good, all the better I should go.
And my parents were happy to hear that...why not?..

I told him I am happy to aim for TPJC.
He said that's possible too.
Can't wait to hear the good news.

Shopping online again.
The sum is hefty but, well, it's alright.
Money can always be earned right? Lol~

No History today, just Amath.
I made a fool out of myself during Amath today.
Countless times.
Lol~.

XOXO.