It's been quite some time since I last updated.
Reason being, no time to update. Lazy.
And the tests and competitions are and were driving me nuts.
A relatively lengthy post ahead.
Enjoy.
I'm relieved that I dropped out of NE skit. I'm sure the skit will go along well, or probably, even better, without me.
Nevertheless, a burden off my shoulders.
Next off, I dropped out of the Astrigue event at HCI.
Yes. A boys' school. Filled with intellectual guys.Yet, I really can't find the time to devote myself to it.
And the competition dates fall on Saturdays, which are my CCA training days.
SYF is nearing as each day passes.
I'm sorry, Mr Lim.
All I'm trying to say is, I dropped out of 2 major events in my TDL.
And life is looking up a teeny weeny bit. Not alot, but abit.
I'm finally enjoying decent breaks here and there.
It's tough. But I'll try and cope with it.
I'm aiming just a bit above average and even if I do fall, I'll still survive the ordeal.
Take today's Emath test for example.
I know I'm going to fail it. And I felt that sense of disappointment.
I'm feeling very disappointed with myself, for not being able to prove to Mr Ang that I can do it.
Mr Ang's a nice guy.
Yet, I keep getting lousy results. And I'd hate to pull down the class MSG.
I really
don't want and don't like to disappoint my teachers.
Especially teachers I'm really fond of!
Sigh. I need assistance from the other Ang to help me tide this.
Back to the Emath test,
I told
Kitty, I didn't study hard for it.
Thus, it's comprehensible if I fail it.
Imagine if I studied day and night for that test, and I end up failing. I'll definitely feel 10x worse. Of course, I'm not stressing that you can't study day and night.
You can.
It's just..well, if it's yours, it's yours.
If it's not, I guess you'll just have to try harder the next round.
Then you will ask again.
What
if there's no next round? Does that mean we're screwed?
Well of course not.
You don't let results decide your strength/weakness in the subject.
So long as you put in effort. And you know you gave it your all.
That's what matters in the long run.
Alright. I'll stop preaching.
I'm just saying, for my own self-reading. Just in case I feel demoralised again.
And hey, I think it works.
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Problems are occuring in our class.
Not just the
obvious ones.
There are some, which
are there but not visible with the naked eye.
I just hope they'll all go away.
Before I start falling into the moodswing zone.
Again.
And I'm getting irritated each day. With what I see and what I hear. You know it. I bet you can feel it too. If you don't, you will. Eventually. But if I
ignore you, rumours will spread like wild fire and people will start throwing me questions.
And if I don't answer, they'll start throwing me more questions or they'll start thinking I'm a freak and I end up getting fucked up.
What I hope from this person, is for him/her to realise that being caring and concerned for someone is one thing, BUT being judgemental and critical is another.
For now, only one person knows. Or two. I don't really remember.
The < , the better. Hey, I just applied Inequalities!
A last note.
Tomorrow's Good Friday.
All I wish for is to stay happy and positive.
It's getting late.
I just had buffet at a hotel which I frequent in the past.
The wonderful, deep memories rushed in.
It's good to be back in a place you were once so familiar in.
To end off this post, I'm wishing you and me all the best.
That sounded very broken, but I'm lazy to change the grammar and whatever.
Nights.
XOXO
if my promise ain't enough, then a touch says everything.
Apr 10, 2009