you will be my memory and my rememberance. i only know the moments we can share in the future will only be imagery formed in my head. not so of wishful thinking, but more of moving on from you. if the feeling's not right any longer, it won't be right anymore. i'm done! so go on and break free from the shackles of what we once shared, a tight bond between us two that could be sworn to secrecy because nobody under the sky knew, except us.
i hope we don't keep in touch, because i'm moving on and away from you. so long! may we never meet again!
today i learnt that people change. maybe, it's not them that is to ''blame'', but our unwillingness to accept and conform the new ''them''. when things like these happen, who do you blame? Them or yourself? and when people change, do they actually change for the better or for the worst? don't anybody actually think of all these? I have to take extra caution because i know one wrong move and everything will be wholly different. i know this post sounds abit depressing, but this is just my two cents worth from this recent June hols. I only can ascertain something from this rich experience, and that is: I believe I have caused one great of a contribution, or probably one heck of a mess, and it's time for me to move on.
I have definitely rekindled my long lost love in blogging again! So relieving to pour out my sorrows..k lah, now holidays, i should be saying more pleasing things, my happiness then, without having to care who will read or whatever.
In the past I don't even know why I was so self-conscious of what people say about me or think of me lor. Now I still am, of course we all have to be self-conscious..But to the extent of changing your own self to please others? That would be so wrong. And thank god hormones have kicked in the right time to bid goodbye to such immature things.
And since I'm talking about the past, last time I think I really was a loser. Like seriously, in soooo many ways. I don't even know how I got through the rough tides with choppy waves in my life. All I can say is, time was my greatest healer. Time really does heal all wounds, for me.
Spare me all the drama in my life. I don't wish to be bothered.
Now half of my holidays left! Shoot...
Just. Need. To. Sleep. More. :)
I just want to go engage myself in more sports too. Badminton, swimming, cycling...and not only running.
The news today of a guy in army who died while doing 2.4km still gives me much shivers on doing MINE when school reopens. Many times I run always cock up lor, not breathless, then legs will cramp. June Holiday Resolution? To improve my stamina and physical self.
RIP to that guy too..
I'll be keeping this more updated, that is, for the holidays..Not sure if I can manage to blog when school reopens...Can I?
Till here.
you know what i hate most? waiting for an email to come back to you, but it never does.
it will probably get back to you a week later. but what can you do? you're only pathetically waiting for the other end.
this is probably the most irritating thing ever during PW.
i really abhor PW! But it's just a few more months! I'll bite the bullet with my members!!
and now i'm online to do history. gahhhh.
before i go,
for heaven's sake!
stop comparing jc and poly students together!
in the first place what is there to compare? the rigour? the amount of rest time? subjects?
there's nothing to compare! we all chose our different routes.
and now that i'm here in IJ, nothing will ever change the reason why i made this decision.
Woah I am SUCHHHHH a suaku! blogging from my phone for the first freaking time and this is definitely awesome...ok. enough hyping. :)I'M EXCITED FOR MY IPOD NANO WHICH I WILL BE COLLECTING TODAY I HOPE! YES I'M BEING RANDOM! HEHE! MY FIRST APPLE PRODUCT! How not to be?!?! well...before i stop, I finally FINISHED VAMPIRE DIARIES SEASON 1 (last year) AND SEASON 2(just now)! definitely a tear-jerker...i'm still not out of it actually! still thinking of stefan, elena and of course damon :\ Well its nice to be blogging again. I HOPE TO BE AS ACTIVE AS I CAN! ;-)
Have you ever faced a hypocrite?
That would say one thing and do the other, without a blink of an eye?
Gives me the shivers just thinking about it.
I daren't make things so obvious at first. But I feel, I'm 16 going 17 man. I do have my right to vent out my unhappiness right? Bottling up will only make me feel worse.
I lost my utter trust in you. How can you say that of me? And my friends? And most importantly, we are all under your care...Yet, I know I have to face you every single school day.
Oh...So doomed..
Sometimes I don't know whether you're sincere or not.. I used to like you alot because I feel you were different. You understood us too well, probably cause you have very little generation gap with us. But now, I'm standing more on the neutrality side.....will I go to the negative side? I hope so not.
How? How to survive these 2 friggin years? Oh the horror. :/
i can't get it back but i don't want it back
Jun 25, 2011